I probably should have realized that my husband would become different but what is sad is that I don't feel he's who he was. I hate to say that he's a shell of himself but that would probably be the most accurate until he gets himself back.
I am hoping that once this is all over and he is cancer free, the husband that I had pre pancreatic cancer will return (without the pancreatic cancer) because I sure do miss him. It will be more work afterward.
I will say that this past chemo session has been the best side affects so far. He has managed to eat a bit more, and rest a bit less. For that, I'm happy.
Maybe this past week is a sign of hope that things are getting better?
Can it be the truth?
I don't know but I certainly hope so.